Today is a 1

On a scale of 1-10 where 1=very sad. 

Cried some yesterday, first started after my brother said he missed mother and called her number. 

Then I started a Remembering Mother' whatsapp group. Don't know what is the trigger but I was crying last night while lying in bed. 

And then again today when I saw the poem written by Desmond. 

This whole day I'm just down. Made my work even more unbearable. It's a 1.